I had an interesting conversation with a very special friend of mine this week. He expressed regret about not starting a relationship with me a number of years ago. He believes that if we had started a relationship I would not have contracted HIV, or experienced some of the more frustrating events in my life over the last few years…
Whilst I found this opinion incredibly sweet, it also distressed me somewhat. We were always very close. I would like to think that we still are and it saddens me that he can look back and regret a decision that was the right one at the time – especially considering a relationship was never even discussed or really sought after at the time.
They say hindsight is 20/20 however I think that in this case it has been distorted by this person wanting to be an amazing friend and take some of the pain out of my life. I am so incredibly blessed to have this kind of friend.
I have been through some difficult experiences in the last few years, HIV being only one of them. But I am not regretful of any of them. Each and every experience has allowed me to grow as a person and learn something new about life.
So to my dear friend, I thank you for looking out for me and always providing me with love and support. But please don’t regret the past, I am thankful for it… Life is a journey, and I would rather focus on the road ahead, rather then what has passed by. Don’t get me wrong, it’s good to reflect back – that is what the rear-view mirror is for. But never regret. The scenery was great, I learnt many things – things that will help me move forward with life and that is what I am thankful for.
Hope In Vastitude 